Redoing☆Childhood

Despite all of the improvements I've made other the last few years in regards to my abilities and my own confidence in said abilities, one area that I continue to struggle in is endevours that involve other people and my place in relationships with other people. As I've mentioned in the past, I grew up with a condition called selective mutism. Because of this I struggled to make friends (probably an understatement) but what I desperately wanted more than anything was to have a small group that I fit in with. It all started when I first moved up to secondary school and I began my "emo phase". I tried so hard to fit in with the other alternative kids and although they often tolerated me I still felt awkward and uncomfortable, and like I was the one person in the group that didn't really belong there.   After my emo phase I went into my "weeb phase". Much the same thing happened except at the time there weren't really any other anime fans at my school s...

Cheerleading My first encounter with cheerleading came when I was in my first year of secondary school. It was the first time I'd seen anything to do with cheerleading in the UK, before that I'd just considered it to be an 'American thing'.  I remember seeing a poster in the P.E. block at my school that advertised an allstar cheerleading club. I only considered it for like 5 seconds before my low self-confidence got the better of me and I pushed the thought aside. I hadn't even been diagnosed with autism yet but what I did know was that I was awkward and clumsy so there was no way I'd be able to do something as athletic and complex as cheerleading.  The type of P.E. sessions we did changed from term to term and around that time we were doing gymnastics. Gymnastics is a large part of cheerleading. The sport also includes dance and stunts. I absolutely hated any form of P.E. because in my mind I wasn't the least bit athletic, was terrible at sports, and plus ...